Hey you guys,

Thanks for the support. I can't believe what's happening to me now... I caught a cold. It's only my 2nd one in 12 years and I'm more convinced than ever that I have cancer and that this cold (especially the scratchy throat) is the form my cancer has chosen to show itself. I'm afraid I'm never going to be well again. I also forgot to mention that I'm afraid I have early onset alzheimers. My memory seems to get worse and worse on a daily basis and I feel like I'm becoming unable to perform routine tasks (and I know my ADD contributes to this but...) like getting everything together that I need to bring to work. And the memory problems also make me think I have a brain tumor. ARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH !!! I can't believe every little ache or pain or muscle twitch has me running to the computer to look at www.wrongdiagnosis.com. I've spent hours on there.
Then I get frustrated and I say, "okay, well if I do have a terminal disease, then I'll die and I won't have to be neurotic anymore." (apologies if the "N" word offends anyone). But I am. I'm loopy. I'm petrified of death. I'm necrophobic so la la la la la la la.... don't want to think about this anymore. Okay, well, I'm going to bed now. The Benadryl is kicking in...