thanks for the advice everyone, I'm scheduled to see the doctor next month. I already explained my situation to them so that it may help with the eval. Hopefully they can get me going in the right direction. My real dad had what I beleive was some form of anxiety condition. He was diagnosed with this at a younger age than me and i'm 39. It's my understanding that mental disorders are not generally hereditary. I'm not exactly sure what he was diagnosed with. Back then everyone just said hes got bad nerves. Anyway, I have held this in so long that I now realize how distant i've been for so long from my family. It also makes me wonder why noone ever said anything to me about why I was so distant. I just want to get back to where I can see some good in anything. There is little that makes me laugh anymore and I just feel like i'm going to break from being wound so tight. Anyway, day by day....Rob