hi Byzantine, after I reluctantly talked to my family about my problems, they were understanding. We set up the appt to see the doctor through social services since I don't have insurance anymore. I worked at the same job for 17 years of which the last two were in management. I think for a long time that I was just running on autopilot. My defense mechanism was to not absorb anything and just keep going. For about the last six months the job really started to get to me. Still denying that I had problems at this point and working 14 to 15 hours a day I finally broke and quit. Now, looking back I realize that I should have sought professional help but I didn't give in to the fact that I was having problems other than normal stress. I had good medical benefits through my work but denied that I had issues and just let the job get to me more and more. Now, i'll have to wait to see the doctor. I hope I can just get back on track as i'm getting ready to start another job and i'm not in a good place right now. I don't know why I waited so long to acknowledge that I have problems. Also, I don't think my family understands the gravity of my situation. I just want to see some good in the world again. Actually, I already see some since finding this site and seeing how there are good people trying to help others. This gives me some hope. Thanks for the advice, but i'll have to wait a while to see the doctor then hopefully I can get headed in the right direction. ........Rob