i did go to T... I don't think I'm not allowed to show up since "We have a contract, Kiya, that we will meet, and I would be upset if you did not show". It was hard to be there. like you say - such big changes, so overwhelming. i fought tears the whole time, only to lose the battle in the end. "Kiya, speak about the depression" - i looked out the window... does depression have words?
I tried to return a little wooden frog she'd sent home with me one night - to remember to leap to better things - and she said "it's yours". she gave him to me =) "he's a good frog". lol
i have to remember to keep pushing/leaping forward. do not get stuck here, in depression, or in this housing place... this is a lilly pad landing for NOW, not forever. gotta get envigorated, gotta stay awake, gotta learn to function. and yet t said "Kiya, don't feel you have to force yourself to do anything right now". I don't get it. That is the whole point of moving... changing the way and manner where i lived. but maybe because i am fairly deep in depression? i was surprised to hear her say that. maybe because she knows just how crushed I am that my dr. is moving. maybe she senses that to force myself to do things would be turning myself away?