i missed seeing T yesterday because i couldn't get the pain under control in time . i took busses and struggled to make it as soon as i could but busses were late for the connecting bus and i missed my appt with T.

i really need to see t
everything is so difficult. Today i have to see the pain management dr and H. won't go with me, - there's always some way he turns it against me. This time "I didn't let him know in time."

It's so hard to see this dr alone because he believes the worst lies about me and is so abusive. He would never talk to me like that if a family member or friend was with me.

i'm ALWAYS there for anyone in my family when it comes to drs appts - why is there never anyone for me?
i will have to listen to tha DRs abuse of me. It's so unfair that i have to cry and beg this dr just not to be in terrible pain.

Everyone in the office is negative and unsupportive. Everyone - all the other patients have a family member with them - i'm the only one that goes there alone.

The dr probably figures if i can't have anyone in my family believe me and come with me- why should he- when there isn't obvious reason for my terrible constant pain.

It's so hard to endure this. Pain is so terrible. This all is so triggering for me. It's horrible to make someone live in pain.

Thank you wanttoheal- yes- i tried herbals- my H is into that and sells it also. i even went to Holland to see someone there that was supposed to be very good.

Thank you Petunia, Caroline and Sarah. This is a very hard situation to stay in - thanks for being there.

love,
kerria