I posted a little bit ago about wanting to get to know my boyfriend's family, and he said he'd introduce me to them when he's in medical school. So here's a little bump that came up with the school department.
Since we both thought he's going to this one med school, I plan to move with him over to his area, so I applied to a school near his school to go there for graduate studies before I start my med years. We were planning to rent an apartment together near his school, and it'll be 45 min away from my school so I can just drive.
The bump that came up is this, that med school is not taking him off the waitlist, and he might not go there after all. So I was thinking, oh it's ok 'cause my graduate studies is condensed into 1 year instead of 2, so instead of staying near his school we can rent an apartment near my school. While I work my butt off in school to really pull through, he can work and volunteer in their hospitals for more experiences. Well, to make story short, he doesn't want to move with me if he's not going to school. So I have no clue what's gonna happen with my school plans now =(
I know he's not comfortable with me going to school just by myself and he's not there. I just know it, 'cause he keeps asking "so you're still going to so-and-so school?" even though I said yeah I think this program can really help me stand out in med and open many more doors for me as long as I do really good. But I've been thinking about it, and maybe it isn't such a good idea. I know he's not comfortable with me going away to a far school without him, so I need to come up with another plan for schooling! What should I do? I don't know what to do anymore. The thing is, I promised my Grandma I would get a degree from graduate school, and I want to make her happy.
But if I go away by myself, my boyfriend's not gonna be happy and what if he breaks up with me and I don't want that. I want to be with him, that's why I sacrifice so much to match my schooling with his so I can be by his side.
I wish he can just move with me for just 1 year! But that's the thing, he doesn't want to move, an I understand so I don't want to make him move. I'm soo stuckk! Maybe I should forget about going to the school I planned to go, and look into the school that's in my hometown where my boyfriend is. The thing is I don't know if they even offer such program 'cause the university is new. Sigh. Whichever way I look, I'm really stuck. I know he wants the best for me, he said he'll support me whichever way I choose, but I know he's not happy with me going away so far. Maybe I just need to step away from it....eat some chocolate...and re-look at the alternatives.
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