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Originally Posted by jahrderglad
I agree. It's something I'm just starting to discover. I don't currently have a relationship with him, either. Not for lack of trying; I don't think he wants much to do with me now that he has a new wife and can pretend that my mother and everything associated with her (including me) never existed. Sometimes I think that, despite how calm and composed he always is, I am far stronger than he. He also seems ashamed that I didn't turn out exactly like he wanted me to; he hates himself and sees that I'm very much like him. But that's nothing I can change. The best I can do is to be receptive if he ever wants a relationship, and to learn from his mistakes so that when it comes time for me to have children, I can do a better job. I don't have any hard feelings toward my dad, though--I just feel very sorry for him. He must be a very sad man.
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jahrderglad you are strong, despite everything you've felt & been through, you have achieved alot, you are wise, i do hope you do find a relationship with your dad, i myself are beginning to realise nothing is ever to late, your mom clearly has issues, who knows what she may have suffered herself during her life to have made her like this, no its no excuse, but you should be proud how well you've coped, its no wonder you've felt so much confusion, still so many answers, sometimes i think its worse not exactly knowing or understanding the truth, its so easy to doubt yourself, stay strong
