thanks for everyone's replies. Even thoughI I have talked to my family, I don't think they understand the extent of my situation. I'm also am not comminicating very well for fear of putting more on them than I already have. I've been so anxious for so long that I can't remember a day when I wasn't. I wake up with panic attacks. I wake up all the time thinking i'm going to be late. Actually I can't remember the last time that the alarm actually went off before I turned it off myself. I need to get some real sleep. Not that I don't sleep, I just don't rest......Rob