Hi. I'm determined to read all that you have written here on this one thread someday. I just can't seem to concentrate at the moment. How old is your baby? I had very bad postpartum depression when I had my son. And also, my PTSD got a lot worse. Not only because of where he came from, but also because I was triggered by the way my father acted around him and my son's cries, etc. I was abused since was a baby, this is why I feel my PTSD got so much worse for combined reasons. My hand writing changes a lot too. It can get very sloppy, bigger or smaller, and almost perfect. I have very big problems dissociating. I do almost 24/7. So much that sometimes when I see other people they ask me if I have been sleeping. If I have DID, I don't know it. Although, I have started to question it also. But I think I have a non-specific dissociation disorder. I'll wait to see a T though, to see what he/she has to say. I don't know if this has anything to do with this, but I have gone to the gas station before and was told that my ID was fake. They say I don't look like myself. It's so aggravating.