I am fighting a losing battle!!! At least I feel that way!!!! Why cant he see that I love him! Why cant he see that I am sorry for the hurt I have caused? Why does he have to bring it up all the time? WHY!!!!!!
I feel like i am losing control....i had bad thoughts again last night, but the child sleeping next to me put me back on earth....I love him sooo much.... but he cant see it!

I am panicing!!!! I am crying!!!! and i cant focus on work. I have been here since 8 and havent dont hardly anything !!! AAAAAAARRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHH