My darling Mary Alice.. Oh honey how can I say I fully understand what you are going through right now.. When i first relized I no longer loved my ex-husband, I felt just like you do right now..
It does not get better, unfortantly, I wish I could say you will wake uptommorw and it all be better [fronw]

But since you and I are being brutually honest, I can not and will not lie to you..
When you feel this emptiness, you should just stay to yourslel unless Alex need you..

I am very proud of you for trying to function so well around him, some moms or even dads would not do that, they would let the "hatred" they feel towards the other shine birghtly, but you are hiding the feelings better than I did..
I am sorry, you feel this way, trust me I am. When you do get to come home for good..
Promsie me one thing.. You will try to get out ???? If that is what you want, can you raise alex on your own???

Peace and love coming at you..
I love you my maryalice....


<font color=purple>The way to love anything is to realize that it might be lost.
- G.K. Chesterton
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