(((((( mel )))))))

I'm sorry you are hurting

I know exactly this feeling.

You were there for me when I was cutting up my legs and was embarrassed for doing this to my legs for the first time.

I usually cut up my arms or starve myself because I just can't cope.

I can't handle my emotions especially to do with anger. I don't like getting upset or anything like that. The more angry and out of control...the more likely I am to hurt myself via cutting or starving myself, which is a form of control.

The only thing is ...when I cut up my legs...things were completely out of control and I just wanted to hurt myself and when I do I feel a rush and relief from doing that as well. Sort of like a drug.

Many things going on at once.

I'm not sure if this helped any. I hope it did help you understand or that you could relate.

If you need anything pm me or yahoo me anytime.

I miss talking to you.

Please take care
Eva