I am hanging in there. My parents still are not talking to my husband and vice versa...which makes it real difficult when my mom lives next door and watches the kids for me while I work. He hasn't had one drink since the fight....but this isn't the first time he has gone extended periods of time to only going right back to his own ways. Since I first posted we have already gotten into a few more arguments because he will comment that he will stop drinking BUT he still doesn't there is anything wrong withhaving a drink "once in a while." I just can't get him to understand that his view of "once in a while" is different than mine and that what he does is harming his life and his family's. So I am scared every single day that this is going to be the day that he decides that he can have a "couple." And then what.....I don't know. He keeps saying that maybe sometime he will be able to just have a couple....then I say that he probably will never be able to drink again...then we fight. I keep telling myself that I have to take it one day at a time but it is soooo hard to not think "what if this happens." I would like to go to the alanon meetings but I work 10 hour days and would find it really hard to fit it in. I just pray every single day that this time will be different for him.....I hope.