Thanks for the encouragement everyone.
It's ok- it's hard to identify with someone who doesn't even want to identify with herself.

Nobody knows like i do how hard it is to identify with constant terrible pain that's untreated because i don't have a dx - a physical one to explain the pain- only a psych dx to explain the psych pain.
We have the rest of our lives to live in torture of physical pain- until some dr will believe me and treat me. Do you think that i'll be able to go through that? Put my self and my parts through the torture of being in constant pain? How long can i do that. ?

Until tomorrow?
until next week?
Next month?

That's a long time to live in agony.

Trying to cope with the impossible. i'm still trying to cope. my mind is getting so messed up about it- whether it's a good thing to cope or a bad thing.

take care,
kerria