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Old Feb 19, 2010, 04:58 PM
Anonymous45023
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Hi nirmal, I get the rage thing too. Not a ton, but when it hits, it's pretty bad. Mostly throwing things (including myself...into walls), ie. object and self-directed. It seems to hit with a flashpoint of total overload.... think it's more hypomania related. Something to do with everything being amplified and intensified, you know? Like being faster and everyone seems so unbelievably slow, tiny little sounds annoy me, just *everything*. Sometimes I recognize being like this and will try, when practical, to self-quarantine and stay to myself for everyone's sake. Sometimes I don't realize, or try to stubbornly push through and that's when the least little thing can send me. I was horrified by this for years and had absolutely no idea what my problem was. Agitation, irritability and low impulse control seems to be the elements that combine for trouble. Finally on meds that are working, and it seems to be helping with that a lot too.... more in the "normal" range.
I hope that things do get better for you. It is hard with kids. I have one (older teen now) and was most mortified for him to witness a "mom flip out". Glad to have finally learned what was going on, for a better shot at catching the signals before they get out of control.
to you. Keep us posted, ok?

edited to add... yeah, mellow and quiet most of the time. One extreme to the other. Ugh.

Last edited by Anonymous45023; Feb 19, 2010 at 05:01 PM. Reason: forgot a bit