Dya know Siempre, I do exactly the same thing, I cannot look at people. Thing is when I make eye contact, I get intrusive thoughts or I go blank or they are not interested in anything I have to say, therefore when I see them again, they avoid me because they know whenever they see me, there will be an uncomfortable, tense atmosphere, which I can feel too, its almost painfully atmospheric. My social anxiety comes on incredibly strong, I dare not open my mouth for saying something wrong and if I make a slight fool myself it hard to pull myself together again and I make an even bigger fool out of myself. I feel so self destructive when these sort of situations happen, I feel like a freak.