Tomorrow is my daughter's final camp day and the owner's are having a pool party at their house; my mother is a housekeeper so she volunteered to go there today to help clean up for tomorrow. She asked me to come along so I agreed as I didn't want to be labelled as the parent who doesn't volunteer plus the lady was picking us up and taking us back home. I thought I would've enjoyed it but I didn't; once again I could've sworn that during both trips, people on the street were watching me and that the lady was also judging me as it seems every kid who attends her preschool / camp come from a 2 parent home and of course she knows there is no father/ husband in my picture, I was uncomfortable for the whole 9 hours I was there. I honestly can't go back there tomorrow for the pool party, I will die, I know I will; I am going to have to pull a fake illness of some sort to get out of this. whoever reads this please don't think that I am a bad mother 'cause i'm not; I just can't handle it right now.