My life shouldn't have been like this...... I mean I can't help that my father doesn't like me and my mother is illiterate...yeah I'm realising that everyday, It's seems like realisation to things I didn't know or understand before are slowly coming to me at 24 yo..... she thinks that plants and cleaning peoples homes is the way of life she has never tried to advance herself in any way or fashion...In a way i'm kinda sorry for her, she let a man who cares nothing about her keep her back and she thinks that's love. Today I voluteered to help out with the preparations for my daughter's camp pool party at the camp owner's home and once again I got deeply depressed as If I didn't have all those family and peer issues to deal while growing up I would've been somebody successfully living the life like how those people are but instead I'm tagging along with my mother the housekeeper don't get me wrong housekeeping is a honest job that seems the only thing my mother knows and enjoys ;more power to her I say; but that's not for me not even the tagging along.I am trying so hard to get a job to get out of this rut but it is easier said than done. I hope you get my drift and understand what I'm saying.