Aw, Saluki, you're not a jerk! You're just human! It happens to the best of us. It's good you had this mini-break to kind of get a new perspective on your relationship.
From my point of view, it seems like you need to feel independent yourself and the two of you need to work on communication. Has the couples therapy started?
Keep us posted, and don't be too hard on yourself!

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Ro