Trish, I love you dearly. You are so incredibly sweet and caring.

If I "stay to myself", eventually Alex suffers because then he gets in a bad mood and yells which hurts my son's feelings. I can't allow that to happen.

Could I raise Alex on my own? Yes, if I didn't look at the financial end of things. That is what is stopping me. I need to focus on that and try to get things caught up from when I was off from surgery. If I have to have surgery again, it will be a mess.

It's amazing to me how different I am when not at work - I am so much a loner........yet I deal with people constantly and do my job well.

My T was trying today to get me to be more self aware of Mary Alice and how she feels. I fought him tooth and nail today, but he pushed and pushed on making me say something........and I finally was able to get the words out. He told me he was proud of me..........

Anyway, I hope you had fun this evening. Take care, and have a good weekend. I'm back to work tomorrow and Sunday, then home for good.