I feel like my PTSD is getting in the way in class and/or lab meeting. And the worst thing is my professor has noticed and brought it up with my when I talked about grad school applications with him. I was mortified that he noticed. I know that I need to talk about this with my T but recently there has been so much other pressing stuff that it has gotten pushed to the back. This is what has been happening. When I go to speak in class or lab meeting at some point I have this brief (and I mean really brief) period where I loose track of what is going on. I end up repeating what I was saying to finish my thought because I can't figure out where I was in what I was saying. My professor (he's a clinical psych professor) actually asked if I have a tic or some other neuro-cognitive disorder. I told him no, that it was caused by anxiety. The next time I asked a question in class it didn't happen as bad. Bu the day after that in lab meeting it was awful. I felt like I was "gone" for a pretty significant period of time. I'm worried he isn't going to be willing to write me a letter of recommendation for a PhD program. The thing is that it only happens in his class. Not any of my other classes. And I am in his lab. I know that I have always been afraid of people in positions of authority, and I think he just makes my anxiety of this unbelievably high. I never dissociated (if this is what this is) before I was attacked. On our first day of class he said that he would be judging us and evaluating us when ever he saw us. I think this is part of the reason I'm so scared of him. I'm scared that he is going to see my anxiety etc, and now I know he has. I haven't told him about the PTSD as I blamed it solely on anxiety. But now I'm really anxious. I needed to email him this week to set up a meeting about research, but I totally put it off and still haven't done it. I'm scared that he would judge me if he knew. Think that I wasn't fit to do what I want to.