Thanks Nucking.
I am going to look into the book. You are right that I don't feel comfortable with people being caring. It scares the **** out of me. My T told me that she wont be mean to me. She is going to work on gaining my trust without being mean. It feels weird. It is so hard to do. I think I'm going to tell her how weird it feels when I see her next time.

I never trust people (well almost never and it is really hard) who are nice because they could be lying. People don't lie about being angry. And you don't have to worry about them going from being nice to angry at the drop of a hat if they are already angry.