Hi,
Unfortunately, I live in Germany and my family is in the States. You´re right; they do not understand, I wonder if they even bothered to look it up on the net.

I think it is that I have been hurt so many times from my "sister" and my father. And this all started 30yrs.(!!!) ago, because I was unhappy with my relationships. I have tried to make things better, and the more I pushed, the further away they got. As you said, and I remember saying "You just don´t get it" many times and they never will. Anyhow, add bipolar to the situation, and look Out!!!

I am ok now with my farther, but I can tell he feels hurt too. I now have no rel. with my "sister" because she is unwilling to work things out. She doesn´t forgive me for my actions in the past.

Now, my husband and 10 year old twin boys seem to understand my illness. They all came to visit with me during my hospilalizations, and my husband brought them to see me while I was in a coma from an OD that came very near to killing me. I was on ventilator then, too. I had a lot of complications, and i was in the hospital for 2mo. You can imagine how this must affected my boys, and the reason my husband brought them to see me in a coma, because they didn´t know If I was going to make it or not.
Can you believe, that my "sister" did not send a card or letter, not even an e-mail? Maybe now you have a better understanding of my situation.

I clearly identify with what you kind people said.

Love,
nirmal