My mom somehow got my new phone number and has been calling/texting me intermittently. I never respond. Mine sometimes calls to make me feel guilty, sometimes to try to provoke me to anger, and sometimes just to try to manipulate me into coming home. It sucks. I've tried cutting off all contact, but she just hires a P.I. or calls my school to find me again. I often do feel very guilty about not talking to her, but I know I'll feel a lot worse if I do. The healthiest thing you can do is cut ties with your abuser, no matter what. Do it for you. And there's always a way to still contact your brothers. Are they old enough to use the internet? You can always email/IM them, or call when you know your mom won't be home. If they're very young, it's a bit trickier. Let them know you love and care about them very much, but that you have to do this for yourself. Someday they'll understand. And once they're of legal age, you're free to contact them whenever you wish, mom or no mom.

Ohhh, man. I know this. I never blamed my dad at all, but I'm beginning to realise that by leaving me at the mercy of my mother, knowing full well what she would do, he is just as at fault. But just because your parents didn't love you doesn't mean no one ever will! If they don't want to treat you like a human being, they don't deserve you. And that's their loss. There are plenty of good people out there that will give you the love and respect you deserve. Parents should fall into that category, but sometimes they don't. A good parent will love their child unconditionally, even if their child leaves a lot to be desired. But if your parents don't love you unconditionally and treat you well, all that means is that they are bad parents. It means there's something wrong with THEM, not with YOU. And you're not alone. I've been through this, too. Feel free to PM me if you want to talk.