On and on this goes. He txt me later that night said she broke things off and was going back to her ex. I'm like sorry to hear. He's like at least we get to be friends again. Said he was sorry for how he treated me would like to try again but afraid he would hurt me again. Said his mom missed seeing me too.*sigh* I don't know what to think or do right now. I think I need to stay away. So my head says. My heart says talk and take things slow see what happens. I don't think I can do that. I think I need to wipe the slate clean. Yet I'm drawn to him. its like a drug. The love drug. But u just have to quit cold turkey. That's the only way. Maybe I need to disappear for awhile change phone numbers. It all seems so drastic just to end a relationship that isn't even really a relationship. What is we will see what happens. Is that another way of saying I'll talk to you while I look around. Oh I can't do this. It is so wrong
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