You need to let urself live life stop being so negative...I know it may be hard but sometime an individual needs a new surrounding, new things to do, if you repeat the same things it tends to get old and depressing. My brother girlfriend is like u she negative but because everyone around her is negative. Just breathe and enjoy things stop thinking that it causes stress. Love is the best thing to experience but can also be the worst experience the thing is people dont understand that if you never been in a serious relationship it is scary that first one but once the heartache happens or should happen then its tend to be easier you know. I hope everything works out..i am hear if you need to talk...