There's this girl that I kind of liked, and became friends with during summer school (when my depression was in remission and I was a way more enthusiastic and fun person to be around) When school started me and her remained friends and my affection for her started growing, but I soon began feeling the effects of my depression. I started pushing her away, stumbling over my words and thoughts, and once when I somehow mustered the courage to ask her (and some other friends) to the movies and dinner, I totally ruined it by acting weird, anxious and just crazy in general.

So then one day she saw me walking by myself down the hallways at school( the way I do everyday like a freak) and she ran up to me and asked why I roamed around by myself. "It helps me think" I lied (cause I never confess to anyone that I'm depressed even if they can clearly see it.) And then she told me " You look kind of..creepy walking around by yourself, don't you.. have any friends?" And then she looked at me with this look of...pity and disgust that made me want to just die.. And now I always wonder if there was some way I could revive my friendship with her and maybe even form a relationship with her but my depression really knows how to f**** up my social life..

Anyway, I want to know has anyone else completely screwed up a potential relationship with someone because of their depression? And has depression caused you to become.. well, stupid in a sense? I guess this was another venting post.. but.. please, tell me your stories of failed relationships if you have them. It will make me feel less..alone.