Thanks so much - yes i do have to keep those reminders going. My t from 4 years ago came by today bringing me a lovely couch (not a T couch lol), a small table, an end table, a corner-fitting open shelves, and gifts from friends including chocolate. =) I am feeling well cared for at the moment - and oddly also very dissociated allllllll day after that. She is returning tomorrow with a set of drawers.

Tonight as I sat on this couch and had dinner at the table, I had the strangest thought - Oh, this is my house... this is where I'm living....! Things haven't been real all day. I think i was thinking about "home" and how it "isn't" anymore. I still have some things there, and mom still wants me there ALL the time (smothering), but i guess it hit me tonight that this is where i live now. Yup, it's State housing and it sucks and there's some bugs and the ppl are crazy (aren't we all), AND... it's mine. I own my life now... guess it is good to wake up and realize that.