I used to be the life and soul of the party then one day I got ill with depression and my life changed irrevocably. Gone were the invites, the phone stopped ringing, even my family asked me what did I do to myself to get depressed and to snap out of the self pity. I then made a pact with myself that I would no longer be hurt by people, no longer would I try to make friendships only to be disappointed several weeks later when they came to nothing as a result of my mentioning the dreaded "D" word. So I dont really bother with people that much now and have become my own best friend as I know I am a good person and I was once a very popular person so now I am my own best popular friend and I like it. I dont hurt or harm anyone. I only have myself to answer to.
However saying all that since I found PC I am coming out of my shell as I realised there are people like me and it is comforting to log on and listen to and support those like me. Thank GOd for PC.