Thank you fuzzy, allthegirls and iris.

I'm not doing very well with all this today. Really struggling with it all - not just yesterday but everything. Can't see a way forward. See my GP tomorrow then it may be a month before I see anyone again - though I might ask my GP if I can have a checkup session with him in between.

I don't want to be like this.

Other stuff going on too - I have been used as a pawn and have ended up hurting through it. Money stuff. Back to work on Monday. too much going on for me right now. none of us want to be here.
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