I don't think i can do this any more. i feel so lost and so on my own, so scared. one of the two people I have trusted with most of the truth of what is going on for me may not be with me any more. I have lost someone i considered a close friend who has (partly due to the manipulations of other people) let me know that she hates me. i feel alone and scared and i don't want to be like this it is too scary.
I have a feeling of being isolated in inky darkness but aware of myself and the blackness surrounding me. it is too much for me.