Grace,
I just wanted to let you know that there is light at the end of the tunnel. When that time comes is different for everyone. I was married for a yr and half, w/ him for about 4 and half yrs before I found out that he was "unhappy" and then found out he was cheating. It all ended in divorce, I shared the same feelings you are going through, the loss, the shock, the grief. I didn't eat for days because I was so physically ill. I sought counseling, support groups, and each day became easier.
I can tell you you are on a path to recovery. I too became depressed and put myself on meds. I think that was a turning point for me because it allowed me to start healing. It has been almost a yr since we separated and almost 6 months since the divorce was final. I can tell you I am happier than ever because I believe it all happened for a reason and there is something better out there for me. But I also learned more about my self during that time of pain and heartache that I wouldn't change if I could.
Trust me when I tell you that life will get easier. Sometimes you'll feel like you are taking one step forward and then being sucked back two steps. It's natural and it will happen and its okay. I wish you all the best in your recovery and hope that things become easier and you continue to seek out support from others.
Heartbroken
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