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Feb 21, 2010, 03:21 PM
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Member Since: Oct 2009
Location: getting use to my own skin again
Posts: 1,797
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((((((WePow)))))) You and the 8yr old did nothing but protect yourself. The simple truth is the person that hurt you at that time did not want to admitte to others why you as a whole had to protect yourselfs that day. You can let it go with the knowledge what ever happen all those years ago was taken care of back then. Now it is time for both of you to let it go. Two wrongs do not make a right but what you did was protect yourself there is no wrong in that only self protection. WE hope that all of your parts can accept that fact. When we had memiors of what we did to get the body to this point. At first we were in shock and shame , how could any off us be able to do that. but the truith is we did what we did to save our son's life and a hope that he would have a better future. When we cried on our military friends shoulder he reminded us of our group that went through a type of military traing and that what we did was what we were trained to do. It did not take the waight of it offen us but we as a whole able to start to accept that we did the best we could do to keep the body and our son safe. We would not have done that had the people or persons had not tried to hurt us first. And that is the true question, If this person was not hurting you would you have done it? There is no shame in protecting oneself or family. The shame belongs to the ones that thought you where an easy victum and that day a part of you decided not to be the victum no longer. Be proud of that fact! You choise to protect yourself. Be proud!
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Originally Posted by WePow
Anyone ever have an alter who was well hidden be brought out and you see something you never ever thought you would have done?
I had that happen last night and I know what was done by me as an 8yr old girl to the teen boy who was chronically molesting and assulting me was just to escape the situation that day. A part of me split away though because action done of pushing him away as he was taking down his pants resulted in a very bad fall but we did not stay to see if he was OK. We RAN!! And later on we heard about him being in the hospital in very bad shape. We only last night remembered this. I know I had no choice but right now I am feeling so odd... lost? Confused? Not sure. It is like I am waking up from one nightmare into another? I know it is part of the healing... and I never told anyone but instead an alter fragment was formed who guarded that secret from us. We would have dreams of running from the police afraid of having to go to serve jail time.
Anyone else experience anything like this? How long did it take you to get back to normal?
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