Shadow,

I think your reaction is completely normal and healthy. You have every right to be scared! I know I would be. When you decide to return (if you decide to return), maybe take a friend with you and go during daylight hours. At least at first.

Personally, I wouldn't blame you if you decide you want to move. Whatever you decide, I know you will make the choice that is best for you. Thinking of you. Take care.