the only people who know fully what is going on, the only people i can be honest with, are my Gp and my T. My T doesn't feel she can help me and she is going to be away for a month. my gp is so busy i can't call him between appointments just cos i am worried. my family are great but i can't worry them. i can't tell my friends irl because i don't know how they would take it and anyway i am not sure i have friends i think they are colleagues who have been kind to me. i can't call my t i don't know when she goes away to montreal but ihave emailed her. i'm getting stuck in the darkness.