i get the feeling, my desire is being told its not real because its triggering..no one has put anyhing into my mind...and I certainly know what I feel...I'm not sure why this has caused such strng reaction here...but i'm still wanting to suckle even if in reality I wwouldn't....its gone its past...but that unmet need is still there...to have eyes mirroring back love to me as I suckle...