thankfully it doesn't seem to last very long. it's weird though. for instance, i tried to reply to an email from a dear friend, and it was so hard to concentrate on, that everything came out in short bursts. example: "depressed. i know. praying, yes... working on it. i hurt. help me." (it was much longer but you get the jist.. the whole email was like that. i couldn't complete much of a sentance.
now i've moved on to another odd state. im depressed... but awake. and have been so for more than 24 hours already. im angry and irritable and want to quit my meds because they are worthless and want to shut everyone around me out... ugh!! you know, last week... i was on top of the world. i hate this 
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"Why does the rest of the world put up with the hypocrisy,the need to put a happy face on sorrow, the need to keep on keeping on?..I don’t know the answer, I know only that I can’t. I don't want any more vicissitudes, I don't want any more of this try, try again stuff. I just want out. I’ve had it. I am so tired.I am twenty and I am already exhausted.”-Elizabeth Wurtzel
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