oh tree, it's not stupid, not at all.

I think it's great that you have the awareness to know that it's affecting your "littlest parts". And I know I'd react in much the same way. Even though it doesn't make sense to our reasonable minds, we want our Ts to be invincible and always there for us. I know for ME, things like this have been an opportunity for me to experience T as human, and for her to show me that she will still be there for me.