Hi Star,
Thank you for sharing your "history". You sound like me, falling through so many cracks. But I DID go to pdocs, what morons some of them were. But I tried, I really did, but nobody caught the BP dx. It made me wonder what the h*** they went to school for.

I'm sending your lots of encouragement for getting some answers finally. I'm so different now after being dx'd and have the years of med search over with. I hope you can get on a good med and stop the insanity of the mood swings. I still have them <sigh> 'cause can't take the dose of meds I need. But maybe you can get on something that will level out your BP.

I know the feeling about the job! Once I just walked out. Actually, I've done that 3 or 4 times, and no job to go to! But I made my life so simple now Star. It's an easy job, only parttime (am on disability now) and I love it...been there the longest ever on a job.

Please post how the appointment goes, ok? And good luck. You deserve some answers and solutions. Oh, I also wanted to encourage you about being hard on yourself. I've done that so much but now (at 63) have learned to accept things and it's really given me (finally) peace of mind.

Talk to you soon...