think we posted something similar once about wanting to dissociate from the dissociation or some other escape fantasy.

sounds like a great idea to send those idea and thoughts on a wknd vacation!! Maybe their luggage will get lost and they'll be delayed in returning?

sincerely hoping that you can find some moments to enjoy over the next couple days. watch movies that make you laugh. play with animals. go play arcade games somewhere. if you cook then make something you really enjoy having and do so w/o guilt, preseason is on which can be a few hours of mindless numbing television wise......

all those ideas just to say we hope you have some relief.

take care sweetie.