Thanks for the thought and the advice!
I'm doing ok considering, I spent the past year in turmoil over him, so now it's almost relieving to have some resolution and closure. I'm surprised I haven't taken it worse. I'm trying to keep productive, mainly focusing on my art (I did a painting this morning). If nothing else, he's been an amazing muse.
I'm completely self employed, so losing my job isn't an issue. Unfortunately, losing clientele is. I risk losing that if I'm not my usual charming perky self. And either way I lose money.
As for the eye thing, I can't really afford insurance or the bills, so I'm stuck for now. And there really isn't much that can be done about it other than a surgery I've already had and physical therapy which they say isn't very effective in adults. Docs would want to give me an opiate for the pain and I'm allergic to those... so yeah. =/
Luckily I live with one of my best friends and we have company often. We have our friend from CT coming in on thursday and staying with us, as well as a few girlfriends from around the boroughs and L.I. for a sleepover party sorta thing. So I have that to look forward to. I could use the positive female bonding.