I have had this revelation several times just to wake up and discover that I had been dishonest with myself. Or rather, that depression was being dishonest with me. An interesting sense of disillusionment. There is a sense, of "Yes, I was right! I have nothing to prove! I am a loser!" just to do something right and have my world view shatter. Hmmm.

Most of us don't place as big time suckers. I know I haven't got it, and I'm willing to bet that you don't either, but you do have depression. I would be carefull about believing Mr. D, and would recommend finding other constants in your world