Welcome, onlysad. Do you think your parents would be willing to help you? Maybe you could copy what you posted and give it to them?

If that is not an option, do you have a school counselor you could talk to?

If you feel like self-harming, please call 911. Here are some other resources:

http://www.suicidepreventionlifeline.org/
http://www.suicide.org/
http://www.hopeline.com/
http://www.suicideforum.com/

You are way beyond only sad. You need help now.

Thank you for posting. Please let us know how you are doing. You are a valuable person. Help yourself get better.