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fadedspirit · Feb 22, 2010, 09:08 PM

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Originally Posted by anderson

We are feeling like this when we try to tell others how we talk inside. How can you get others to understand that you be able to communicate with each other when parts are not cloacked with fear.

They do not understand that which they do not understand or have never exsperenced. Even those here have their own story on how they learned how to communicate with each other. One of the groups that we where not able to talk with was keeping the present abuse from the whole. This group was all young alters. In their mind they thought they where protecting us like they had done so in the past. We are still crying over the pain that was caused not only to them but to us because how do you get a sinlgleton to understand that they may be having sex with an aduilt body but are molesting the mind of a child. You are only repeating that which made us who we are. We are not mad at our inner children we only weep for the fact that they truely beleived that they were protecting us from the same men that had hurt us so much in the past. We told one person here we honestly do not know which was more pathetic that we publicly ask for protection or the fact that not one person even our so called friends did not lift a finger to help us because they thought we were lost in recall. These men only reinforced that this body was only ment to be used by others with no hope ,no future. but when we try to leave someone is standing there saying how can we protect you if you are not with us. My question is after 3 years of this how can you expecte us as a group to believe that you will protect us from present abuse? You know one looked me in the eyes and asked us why should it not change we finely know what is going on. God we just wanted to hit him the *SS. So here we are sitting in a town that was tought to hate us for being different but knowing in our hearts of hearts that if it was meant for us to move the door would have been open a long time ago. living by faith is not easy at times we just want to go to heaven how can one person be asked to survive so much and at times feel so alone?

A big part of the reason why we have lived in seclusion is because singles either cannot or refuse to understand how we are inside. We have learned through meditation of how to reprogram (for lack of better words) our sentinels or the ones who protect our little ones from the outside world.
If an outsider is to protect us, they would need to gain trust from each of us as a whole, meaning that we are all in agreement, not just one or a few parts in agreement. We too have been hated and misunderstood, knowing that those around us could care less about who we are as we define ourself. Yet even now, we feel safe with no outsiders and refuse to trust them fully because we understand that they are very different creatures than we are. We have just learned to accept them as they are and try to keep our distance from those who may be bad for us. Fadedspirit