Hey all. I haven't been diagnosed with Bi-Polar. I have struggled with what I thought was just depression pretty consistently since I turned 15. The consistency of it makes me think that I don't have bi-polar at all. But I recently learned about mixed episodes in a psych class and I was wondering if anyone with actual experience/ understanding could clarify what, exactly, a mixed episode feels like. I have waves of depression. I am never fully not depressed except for slight periods of time when I am hyper and really happy... but I can't really focus on anything during these times. I usually do silly and slightly embarrassing things (like one of my nick names is JayJayJetPlane and when we were talking about this with a group of friends once while I was hyper, I stuck my arms out and pretended to be an airplane. I was 17 and we were walking down a rather busy street, but at the moment, it seemed like a funny thing to do. My friends laughed and stuff, but looking back, it embarrasses me quite a bit.) for the most part though, I waver between moderate depression and severe depression. I haven't brought this up with my T yet b/c he is always all about not trying to diagnose yourself and all that. But I am really starting to wonder. Last week, while I was depressed, I was also energetic. I only slept for 13 hours total over a span of 6 days. I had two exams in that time that I thought I did really well on. I failed both of them. I would love insights by people who have experienced mixed episodes before to see if maybe that is what is going on with me. Thanks for taking the time to read this.