I'm pathetic for letting all of this get to me like this. I walked right into a war zone. I know realize why I left home so young, cause I couldn't take my parents anymore. I'm 22 and I'm being verbally and physically abused. I'm trying to stay away from them and only come home when I need to but it's hard. I'm counting down the days till I go back home to NY but well I don't really have the best situation over that way either. I'm all alone and will be all alone when I get back to my place. I'm not handling things at all. I've gone back to cutting a lot. Friends keep trying to distract me as much as they can but it doesn't always work and I feel bad for having to depend on them. I don't want them to have to see me like this and try to distract me cause they feel bad when it doesn't work at all. I'm trying to help myself but I can't seem to have the strength to do so.