Hey, been there done that. I can get so bad that I feel anything I say is NOT the right thing. This leads me to locking myself in my room. Especially, when it comes to my personal realtionships, like my kids, and my partner. I feel so out of control.....that okay I am the bad guy.

Time to breathe....apologize......and take responsibilityfor my part ( which is almost always over reacting). My kids look at me with puzzlement and my partner like she has eggshells on the bottom of her feet.

I have found out one thing through, people who know nothing about PTSD have no idea how to deal with it.

That in itself is terrifying....my partner does not know why I don't so "Touchy" anymore....or have more conversation. I just don't feel like it. I have made progress however, so each day I try to say "I love you" and hug. Things I did alot of (ie., show of affection) has impacted the simplest gesture... I is hard. But for me today it is about progress not perfection.

Thanks for listening,

Marion