Ontar , my bday was the 17th, a few days before yours .People wanted me to celebrate but i felt similiar, I just couldnt this yr, it was too hard, I stayed home from work and hung out home relaxing, I have had a love hate relationship with my bday for a long time so i can totally understand where your coming from.Im sorry you were sad, HAPPY BELATED Bday from someone who cares.