So sorry that you got slammed and treated badly! You never ever deserve that type of treatment.
Sometimes when I've been slimed by people who really should keep their mouths shut, when I am home alone, I do a raspberry pfffffffffft loud with my tongue stuck out, a big ol' rejection of the goopy ucky drecky stuff they tried to make me carry.
I take a shower and imagine all the nonsense going down the drain.
I figure out ways to comfort and soothe myself, treat myself good.
You are a good mama, you deserve rest and caring and compassion. Your decisions and choices are good. And you get to have wonderful rest and sleep.
*time to sing a lullabye for you.......lullabye......lullabye.....la la la la la la la........*
Sarah