At first he didn't seem to know what I was talking about. After that he remembered and told me that they were from "his first" and said that he would throw them away. I went out to walk the dog and when I got back he said that he threw them away and that it was hard for him to do because they were important to him.

I just can't get over the sick feeling I have about this. If it were just this one thing, I might be OK about it, but it is all the little things that have built up with us. Little lies about bill paying, trouble with intimacy, arguments, etc. It all adds up to feeling really icky about us. Our relationship has been about a lot of damage control, and I think that a healthy relationship should be about honesty and respect.

I am not saying I am not at any fault. I have a hard time controlling impulse when I am having symptoms and I have been known to blow up at little things.